>reading the worst doc of my life and the parallels to what people go through being almost 1-1 to some of what i went through, there really is no god
>so many people getting called out and its just, all these perpertraters are so similar i see the past in every situation, i see right through every tactic now and things piece together like a puzzle, especially how much older I am now
>i really can't believe theres people who went through what i did, i cant believe that people have to carry this, i dont want a world like this
>I dont know how to put it into words, its like seeing everything be repeated again
>my heart is breaking and I can't stand seeing children be hurt
>I just want to protect people how I wasn't able to protect myself
>im in therapy, medicated, waiting for further things to be in place to help me, being much less online and living with someone now, idk why im writing this i just really want everyone reading to be okay, i want everyone to find closure and justice, your safety is the upmost importance.
>and that i can't say things will not get better because now i see theres people in my situation and i want nothing more than their recovery and i'd be a hypocrite if i keep believing its not possible
>been trying not to publicly vent because its unsafe and can cause parasociality but I really felt the need to let everyone know they can't give up even if it seems like forever, because I can really be stuck in that mindset myself sometimes