Well that's how I felt too. It wasn't only getting banned off the sharty and booru (and repeatedly banned for ban evasion) but also the fact that these sites were going to shit at an alarming rate. It was sad because I knew I wouldn't find a place quite like the soysphere. But I think it was bound to happen. I was depressed for a little bit but right now my art has improved so much, and although I don't have much friends due to my anti social nature, I am in a very happy relationship. I still miss it but, my life's much better now, and maybe it's a sign from God to not let a lot of your life be over the computer screen.